Morbidly Obese and Isolation

I am not changing. I think the only solution for me will be isolation from my routine to kick start the process.

Morbid Obesity: Now I'm Sick

I have planned to get this together. Stop eating the wrong foods. I like the right foods. I ate to cope, to bury my feelings. Now eating is beginning to bury me.

I thought I was so strong, a quiet pillar in the community and my family.

I didn't conquer. I hope you will.

Morbid Obesity: How it ruined my life part 1

LOST RELATIONSHIPS
with family because I am the bed most of the time.

RUINED MY HEALTH
lack of mobility, gallbladder problems, shortness of breath, arterecloris setting in and lymphademia.

LOST INCOME
I can no longer do side projects and my family needs the income.

LOST MENTAL SOUNDNESS
I am so sad now and feeling so helpless that I can't think straight.

LOST SPIRITUALITY
I am so sad now and feeling so helpless that I can't think straight. I cannot focus on spiritual things.

Feeling Like I am in the Final Days

I am feeling like I may be coming to an end. I have lost this battle with food. I think I have Gallbladder disease. I have been sick a couple of days. The doctor told me to go to the ER. I am going to wait for my appointment tomorrow.

My head hurts and it feels like everything I eat is making me sicker. I have cut it down to Gallblader friendly foods like avocado, and blended cauliflower, frozen fruits and the like.

I can barely eat much of anything. It is like I have had bypass.

Why won't I go to the ER?  I hate the way my morbidly obese body can't fit on the gurney and how the staff seems to feel I am sick because I am fat. Also, I don't bathe the way I used to and I have not had the strength to do the job I need to do.  I hope I can do it by tomorrow.

I love my family but I feel it is too late for me to of help to them. I hope they will remember me when I was strong and good and loved God.