My opening
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If you are morbidly obese (MO) and are in the midst of a reasonable thought period, I was today, you know you are walking or most likely sitting away your final days.
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If you are morbidly obese (MO) and are in the midst of a reasonable thought period, I was today, you know you are walking or most likely sitting away your final days.
Why? You know your heart is over working overtime; pumping more
blood and is probably enlarged if you are MO. You know that muscle atrophy will
worsen. You can barely walk and your range of motion continues to diminish with
each day of declined activity. You may be aware that poor nutrition is
compounding all your ills. You probably miss the days when you felt really
clean because you can no longer shower daily and you relish those few occasions
when you have the strength and energy to stand up long enough to get all the
many parts of you clean and dry.
You own many diet books or life plan books or subscribe to
countless support sites and maybe even blogs like this one.
But each day you make the same poor choices. You get that frappe
or bug a family member for cookies or other contributions to your death dealing
self-destructive lifestyle.
You make yourself promises each time you finished that chocolate
treat. You say in your mind or perhaps out loud, "This is it! Starting
tomorrow..." And, tomorrow the speech will be repeated.
You may be able to function in society at some level. You
may be productive in many ways. You have fooled youself into thinking that this
is where you are and you have learned to live with it so you will do what you
can and not contiue to beat yourself up about it.
You know this is a lie. You don't want to be MO. You look at
television shows of people who are much more out of control than you. You
wonder why you look at these shows. Do you feel their pain? Or, do you feel
that you are not as seriously disabled by MO as they are so there is still
hope? You are going to be okay. But, if you continue this way, you won't be
okay. You are not okay.
You often look down at your fat belly as you tuck fresh paper
towels under it or your clothing to avoid getting moisture accumulation which
leads to rashes or rawness and say to yourself, "If I am able to all these
things to cope with my MO, why won't I work to defeat it."
It is the enemy. You are your enemy. No one is making you use
food to cope with using food to cope. You are making no sense. For the moment,
you park your thoughts.
The next reoccurring line of thought is: I am going to do
something about this; I have to make changes. You make an unrealistic plan for
the next day or week. Even if you devise a reasonable plan, you find excuses
and ways to self-sabotage. What will you do? Because if you don't something
immediately, you will continue this walk to a premature death.
To the reader....
Do share any of these feelings? Before we get to strategy, let's talk about how we feel and why we think we do what we do. I suffer from MO and I want out. This is my only qualification. I am hoping to record my thoughts in the AM and PM and hear from others to help us make changes.
Do share any of these feelings? Before we get to strategy, let's talk about how we feel and why we think we do what we do. I suffer from MO and I want out. This is my only qualification. I am hoping to record my thoughts in the AM and PM and hear from others to help us make changes.
Your turn...
Tell me how do you feel?
Tell me how do you feel?
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