9/12/2016
We took our Lab puppy for neutering this morning. I was sad for him. He is such a baby. His name is Eric. He is four months old and it is time for him to have the procedure. He is a strong pup and I am sure he will be fine.
Near the vet clinic was a Burger King. I immediately thought, "I can get french toast sticks and this will be an okay calorie intake for breakfast." After I ate them, I felt awful. Then I started wishing. I wished I could get an appetite neutering. I was jealous of Eric. He can run like the wind and he is always happy. You have to hold back food to get him to eat enough. Food is something he likes but it does not control him. In fact, it is a very small segment of his day. His day is full of play followed by rest.
I thought, "Maybe I can just follow Eric around all day and eat when he eats, play when he plays, and drink water when he drinks water." He never has a drink other than water and is perfectly happy.
Reality check clicking into my mind. I have a job and will have to get back to work now. But Eric's life habits will be on my mind. I am going to think about whatever I can to try and change myself. I will change my response to food.
I know I have deep seated emotional issues and food is a quick fix to cope with anxiety. I am going to think more and more about how to overcome this monster called mindless eating. Instead of escaping to a television series or mindlessly eating something, I am going to think and write. I am also going to read what others are thinking and feeling and their strategies to overcome this monster driving us to premature death because of uncontrolled eating patterns.
Send me your thoughts. I will keep writing.